The god Jar

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More than a year ago, I opened up a god jar that I had made in 2020/2021. You can watch that here.

The purpose of a god jar is to have a place where I put in my fears, anxieties, biggest wishes or hopes. It is a safe, dark container, where my deepest vulnerabilities can live. OR if you want to get real, its an old pickle jar, that has a dangerously sharp hole at the top, that has been painted to look /kewl/.

I have been putting off making a new one for over a year. Procrastination, some big ideas, forgetting, procrastination - many reasons why I just ‘couldn’t’ make one.

I think the truest reason was, the god jar symbolises hope and possibility to me. And in 2023/24 hope has just been hard to commune with, let alone capture. And if meme culture is the litmus test of how people are doing, then the entire world seems to feel hopeless. Except if you’re in Glasgow, visiting the Willy Wonka experience. Then hope abounds.

I am not 100% sure if I am feeling hopeful again, I thought I was a few days ago, but that might’ve been gas…but I also know that I am feeling a little bit more confident.

I’ve been painting a little over the last week. I have a personal project that is coming out beautifully. I am a literal Dungeon Master and I am doing an excellent job. I am doing some hard work in my personal life. I am reaching out to my friends for help, and support (the biggest win here). So using that + the gas, I decided to paint my new god jar, plastered with some muses, reaching out to hopes, dreams, ALL the good stuff.

My favourite muse - Muesli

I’ve already filled it with some ‘stuff’…and to me that means, shit is going to start happening…

So get ready to be on my podcast Sandi Hester.

Tam

Here’s a video of the jar, set to my banging alarm tone.